I’ve only ever had one or two friendships I’d consider genuine and, until recently, it has never been a problem. But in my 30s, I am so sad that I don’t have close friendships where we can share our deep thoughts and fears. My husband and I are best friends, and I don’t feel lonely in his company. I think the schism with your university friends must have been really tough and made you feel vulnerable. The question I would also ask is are you looking for an idyll that doesn’t exist and in so doing rejecting actual real (and maybe at times messy) relationships?
